Monday, January 24, 2011

ME: "I'm in the f*****g FINLAND!" :D





















Did that ever happened to you?

You wake up in the morning - a morning just like any other. You have a breakfast, a cup of coffee may be... You do all the things that you usually do - everything's just OK - nothing less and nothing more... Then you start your day - go to work/school/uni, whatever you do, but all of the sudden, out of nowhere a thought strikes you so unexpectedly that you almost fall back right there on the side-walk on your way to wherever... And the thought is so simple and yet so powerful - you are right where you want to be, doing what you've always wanted. "Oh, come ooon", you'd say - "that's old news!!!", and you'd be absolutely right - it's not the first day/week or even not the first month that you've been there/doing that, but it's like a wake up call that rings in an instant in you head like a million 100kg bells!!!

That happened to me this morning while I was walking from the bus-stop to my morning lecture room... Just like that - something in me just flipped in a split second and even before the thought could actually acquire distinct shape in my brain, I was already smiling... It must have looked ridiculous from the outside, but I've been only thinking that may be (just may be) I'm the happiest person on Earth... So I just kept walking with a silly smile on my face and went to the lecture I was supposed to be... Nothing more, nothing less...

It's past noon now and the feeling is still there turning one regular day into one of the happiest days I had lately!

The reason to write you this is only to wish you (and make a wish for myself too) to have more days like that - to have to courage and to be allowed to feel happy with who you are, what you're doing and where you're living! :)


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1. excuse the French in the title, but it's the only way I could possibly express the excitement at that moment;
2. the picture is of spring/summer-time Kumpula (where I currently live), Helsinki, Finland - credits to the photographer (http://www.flickr.com/photos/haaveilla/collections/).

Thursday, January 20, 2011

МЕ: и мечтите уби

Затвори вратата след тебе -
няма кой да посрещна, уви,
не остана искрица да свети,
да озарява чужди очи.

Затвори и нищо не казвай -
и така достатъчно силно боли,
върви си спокоен
и за мен забрави.

Затвори и тук не се връщай -
не остана кой да те чака -
и мене, и мечтите уби,
а не зная, разбра ли дори?...





{минутка за лично творчество :Р }

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

ME: Marigold


Drops of blood are falling down,
dripping think and slow as time,
putting on a deadly crown -
love worths no more than just a dime.

Here - in 6-feet grave
I lie in darkness all alone.
That's where I feel safe.
That's the place that I call home.

No one cares to know my name -
just a flower is what it used to be.
By your hand, whole to ashes aflamed...
Does anyone still remember me?


Monday, January 17, 2011

ME: choice


Why do I have to chose
between the pleasure and the pain,
when they are all the same,
just having slightly different name?...


Sunday, January 16, 2011

ME: Escaping you



Running away from you

is only stupid circle back into your bed.
Breaking night and day again,
pleasuring you and taking all the pain.

In my nightmares I can only rest!
Killing me or killing you - what's best?...
When the dungeon of your love
is just my curse that makes me blessed...




{{{I never pretended to be a writer, but every now and then I feel good enough to share my own writings...}}}